Sunday, February 21, 2010
yayy today i am truly happy cos i feel like i have found inner peace or sth ((: aiya dunno how to describe haha it's the first time i ever got this sort of feeling, it's like you just feel so calm and so assured that everything will turn out right ((: i mean like, life is so unpredictable, it's very hard to actually be 100% confident about anything at all, but today was just.. different ((:
i think God has just sent me the sign i was looking for ((: or at least i believe so la ((: haha i've been a really lucky girl all my life cos You chose to give me all the blessings i could possibly ask for... first You gave me a really nice and supportive family, then You gave me great friends and found me this wonderful prince, and You gave me so much blessings throughout my education... I went for the GEP screening thing with no inkling at all about what i was supposed to do, what i was in for, etc, but somehow i cleared the test, I survived all the competition and heavy workload in school, people backstabbed me but i survived, the time i had such a bad fever during the math olympiad but i still ended up doing reasonably better than expected, and so much more (: and everything i asked for, You always gave to me... I asked for good health for my family and myself, and You gave that to me; the year it rained so heavily on xmas eve, and i asked if You could make the rain stop so i could go for midnight mass, and woohoo the rain really did stop just in time for us to chiong to church; the time i got this horribly enormous pimple and i prayed You'd make it disappear, and it really disappeared faster than expected, and blah blah, loads of other stuff both big and small but i'll stop listing them here cos the list will just go on and on ((:
and awhile ago, i asked You for a sign to show me if i'm going the right way (: and if i'm not mistaken, the sign just came today ((: and to me, it's as clear as can be yayy ((: cos i know that some things are just meant to be, and from what You have shown me today, i believe that i am heading on the right track whew and i'm just so glad for that ((: and now my mind is truly totally at ease ((: i'm just so so happy and grateful that things are this way now and i shall continue to be optimistic and hopeful about the future because i really truly do believe in this sign yayy ((:
i might have been pessimistic/cynical about some things in the past, (and i'd attribute this to some toxic behaviour i'm exposed to), but i am going to stop it and start being hopeful and optimistic cos anw it's a much nicer feeling than always doubting what's gonna happen (: and yeahh Your sign just gives me renewed confidence in the path i'm heading towards, and i'm just really glad and grateful You chose once again to answer my prayers (: and i know i always keep asking for so many things and am hardly ever satisfied, but i must say that today i really feel very very very contented and peacefully happy with my lot in life ((: and people always say you'll only find true happiness when you know how to be contented with what you have, and yeah i am really truly veryyyy contented already, cos i have everything that i have ever hoped/wished/asked for, and i'll never ever ask for anything else anymore, other than the things i typically ask for everyday, cos i'm not in want of anything else already ((:
really very very very happy alr ((((:
thankyou too my prince shing yayy ((: 